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Thursday, November 30, 2006
9:33 PM


tis video is solely fer manu fans... if ur the fan of other clubs like liverpool chelsea or real madrid, it is nt advised tt u watch tis video... =D

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8:17 PM

Here are some of the pics:
taken from hilton whr mr kaan gave us a treat ;










taken from prom nite;









gonna work on my smiling... my smile sux... its so unnatural.. hahaxX...

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7:50 PM

yup... its back to work again... things had indeed changed for the better after the sort of scolding ytd.. their working attitude did change... but deres also not alot of customers today... so everyone was slacking most of the time... its good anws... since i dun hav a nice slp ytd... was in those blur state again because of it... i was being asked which animal has the biggest dick... well... wad do you think it is...? for soccer personality i know... its makelele... hahax... the source came frm darkia's magazine... for animals, i guessed elephant and rhino... but in the end, guess wads the answer...? its a whale... when i heard it, i was like huh?! whales got dick one ah... it sounded rather ridiculous... dunnoe whether its real or not... gonna do some research... hahax...
and those juniors are mad todae... deres this soldiers of red ants at the fence near the work place... then dey went to 'play' wif dem... step on dem... catch dem and bisect dem... but dey eventually caught a queen ant... its the firx tym i see a queen ant 'live'.. hahaxX... its unable to move as its gonna giv birth bah... deres also alot of red ants surround it... dey got demself bitten by the red ants in the end... hahaxX..
missed soccer ytd night or rather this morning... totally forgotten about it already... so i nvr change my squad for the fantasy and nvr fill the ikts... but nvm... im happy enough that manu trashed everton 3-0... evra scored his first fer manu...! yeah...! gonna try to catch the replay of the match...

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1:27 AM

just came frm the dunearn d&d at the holiday inn... kk mi and alvin were suppose to meet together to take a cab dere... but in the end alvin's dad drove us dere... so saved on taxi fare... hahaxX... but must still thank him fer fetching us dere on time...
the activities fer the prom nite at the beginning is rather boring... first it was the videos... its all kinda lame and no link to the event... but deres effort fer the storyboarding... secondly is all the band performances... to put it in a nicer way, the performances are nt tt gd... it kinda irritates the ear... would rather listen to the music on radio... the 'guess the picture' game is also rather boring... the mcs were unable to bring up the mood... the food are ok only... nt worth 50 bucks at all... after just one serving, the peps of my table are already stoning, moodless... its only after quite sometime tt we move to get summore food...
ok... enough of all the bad stuff, here comes the good stuff... the venue is nice, nice in the sense of the ballroom's design... everyone was dressed until rather hunky or gorgeous... [fortunately AA is nt here, otherwise hunky wun be a nice experession to use animore.. muahahahaxX]and the 4E2 peps won both the mr and ms [forgot the title liao]... only got the mood after all the activities end whr we started taking photos and walking around... ttz the really meaning of prom nite... and also coze of the music, suddenly become more lively... being overposed to noises, music seems to stand out... yup, really hav fun during tt period and will cherish the time we spent together todae, especially since im working almost everydae and hav less tym to hang out... it will be quite sometime before we're gonna hva tis kinda reunion again... will miss u guys...
aft prom, its night life... dey planned to watch movie then play mahjong until nxt morning... but becoze of work again, gonna sacrifice my night life tt i like... haixX... on my way home, i was asking myself am i really tt desperate fer money until i nid to work everydae and hav so lil time to spend and sacrifice all my night life, weekend golfing, time wif my best buddy and others... wads the point of working so hard but in the end got so lil tym to spend those money earned... hai~ maybe im just tired and thinking too much again...
again its coze of work... the two noobs affected my mood todae... i had been tolerating wif those juniors since morning wif the numerous comments dey made and also their working attitude... wif the bzy and tiring dae of work, it adds to the frustration... i finally blasted at dem when dey refused to even do a small favour when i was serving the last customer... was really damn pissed and fucked up... guess the auntie agrees wif mi as well... luckily joel is coming back to help on the 1st... otherwise facing dem everydae i will womit blood... hope things will change fer the betta aft todae... dey looked rather remorseful aft i screwed dem... if the auntie nvr hire mi back, i think she fainted, tis kinda of ppl, did so many things wrong... summore got tt kinda bad working attitude, and she doesn't scold ppl one la... so dey are nt really afraid of her one... but the auntie is a nice person la, if nt coze of her, i guess i wun wan to work fer the bookshop animore...
will upload the photos tmr and dude, sry yet again i had to pung sae u... hahaxX... its back to boring life again tmr~

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Tuesday, November 28, 2006
5:33 PM

damn tired nw aft the day of work at the bookshop... was doing the internet orders fer the whole of todae... arnd 25 of dem... gotta be 100% error-free... so gotta be damn careful not to put extra or nvr put in the books... but i must count myself lucky compared to yimian... on the sat tt i nvr work, he got 39 internet orders and he was working his ass off... hahaxX... ppl nwadaez are getting more and more high-tech... aiyo~
prom nite's coming up tmr... but hav yet to get a pants... going to do some last minute shopping later again...

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Monday, November 27, 2006
9:22 AM

just reached home after spending a night at dar-kia's hse... was dere to watch soccer... the big match btw MANU n chelsea... wif the other manu fans (bryan, kk, jw) and gt... and the chelsea players are a bunch of assholes la... score the tyco equaliser... dey dun even deserve a point... i hope dey lose all their remaining matches... and we call in the mac delivery lyk cheat our money lyk la... the fries are so damn little only la, lyk tt we might as well order small fries rather then a large one... and yup, we only slept around 5...
and the desperation of us to watch the match aft work is damn farni... we were trying to get a cab but all were hired... and its also the firx time i see the orchard road so empty... stand in the middle of the road also dunnid scared car bang... we can just name it our ah-gong's road... hahaxX... we walk and run and walk until wheelock whr we finally manage to hail a cab...
fer the banquet todae, we did almost everything... the food presentation, the cocktail serving, the serving of food... i tot the cocktail serving is damn ezy, but actually its quite difficult... difficult in the sense that the hands are damn tiring... did screw up a little when i was serving the fish... suppose to detach the head but i was unable to do so... other than tt, everything else is quite ok...

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Sunday, November 26, 2006
1:53 AM

itz finally a no work dae fer mi... sleep until i damn shiok... hahaxX... yup, mr kaan gave a treat at hilton todae... i guess most of the peps frm our class attended... mr kaan also asked his notorious gang of friends/buddies along... we (jw, kk) arrived dere rather late... thx to jw... hahaxX... nt blaming u dude... kk was the firx to arrive at our meeting place... and he was quite angry wif the fact that we arrived late and tt we missed alot of 'star cruise' and eventually took a 'boat' dere... the buffet food is rather ok... nt sae the best, but also nt sae damn lousy la... nvr really ate much... but just fer tis treat, mr kaan paid a whooping 1500 bucks... haiya~, wad is 1500 to him man, its the most 1/4 of his salary...
went to meet my family at lot 1 to attend my cousin's wedding dinner in jb... the food fer the dinner dun really fit my appetite... no shark fin, no rice, no noodles... and the service is really bad too... gotta request before dey finally top up my glass of red wine... and tt dun just happen one time, but a few times... the lighting coordination and the music are really bad... throughout the whole dinner, the same song just kept repeating itself... and the video done by those professionals showing the happenings of their wedding tis morning sucks too... the length of video and the length of song does nt match, those video shown are lots of crap [keep on showing the cars on the move, dey think tis is a motorshow?] and the scaling are all wrong... the videocamera man took it in a ratio of 16:9 but made the video in a ratio of 4:3... all the things seems to be thinner... nt to sae im damn gd in video making of smth, but i can simply do a much betta job la... the whole wedding dinner simply sucks...
on the way home, deres quite some happenings on the road... i encouraged my dad to drive pass a almost burnt car which can explode anitime, which is absolutly crazy... no police or fire engines, but just alot of ppl looking at the car burn, nt doing anithing... as my dad drives past the burning car, i can almost feel the tremendous heat given out by the car... its then i realised it is damn bloody dangerous la... the on-lookers could hav diverted the cars away frm road, but dey did nth but just watch... wtf... its nt a funny thing at all... its a burning car wif fuel on board, dun dey noe when fire react wif fuel, an explotion will occur...?!

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Friday, November 24, 2006
8:06 PM

its a bzy dae of work at the bookshop todae... those ppl buying books just can't stop flowing in... thos customers tis yr are somehow more understanding than before, even though dere are more errors made... errors nt by me, but by those juniors... well, back in those daes when i was a noob i also nvr made so many mistakes... um... maybe this shows tt im more clever than dem... hahaxX... im finally taking a break frm work tmr... mr kaan is giving treat in the afternoon at hilton hotel and in the evening i hav a wedding dinner to attend... all the good foods are coming my way tmr... hahaxX...
went to bukit batok to golf aft work... kinda pissed off wif myself... have not played for one month only and all my swing and everythings are screwed up... got a tournament coming up on the 17th, and wif tis kinda of performance, i would rather stay at hm to slp... gotta buck up abit and practise more... and just when im pissed off, the personnel of the range added my frustration... i inserted my card into the ball dispense machine and the money is deducted, but no ball is dispensed... when i tell the range personnel, the guy dere insist that the money is not deducted... after some commotion, he realised tt the money is indeed deducted... stupid fellow la... made mi so fucking fed up...
saw a damn gross person on the bus on my way home... hav ever seen a half-naked guy seating on the seat and leaning back on it, HALF NAKED...? i've seen it... tis rather old uncle... yarks...! dun even noe whether he got bath or not... he is making the seat so damn dirty and disgusting... feel sad fer the person taking his seat... so the morale, bus seat are nvr clean... i've seen ppl putting their feet on it, putting their market carrier on it, maybe ppl fart in it... eeee... im changing my opinion on bus nw... the bus might look damn clean, but u'll nvr noe if the seat is clean or nt...

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Thursday, November 23, 2006
8:00 PM

POST NO. 100
wad a milestone it is... after 2 years of blogging... everytime i decided to stop blogging, i will eventually blog again... ttz the power of blogging... hahaxX... yea, i noe its crappy... just happy tt i finally reached the 100 mark...
today is the first day of sale for the textbooks... saw many kinds of customers... those fussy ones and those anything anything ones... just hate those customers who ordered the books but in the end dun wan and also those who request to see tis see tt but in the end dun wan buy... but actually fer todae the customers are still ok la, hav no seen those ultimate ones like some of those last yr... hopefully dey just stay at home and dun come and buy the books... was working wif 2 juniors... and needless to sae, i kinda bullied dem... ask dem do tis do tt... then i slack... muahahaxX...
talking about the banquet ytd, the mentors tt i kena are rather friendly and kind... dey nvr really ask mi to do those intensive work as yet... mostly just serving drinks... unlike others, whom their mentor kinda bullied dem just lyk how i bullied my juniors at bookshop... hahaxX... it was much more challenging and fun then the bookshop work... just tt fer the duration of work, we must stand throughout... which made the feet rather pain since im nt used to it... deres still alot of things to learn before we're actually on equal level wif others... but im ready to learn... hahaxX...

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12:56 AM

im dead beat nw... after working at the bookshop in the day and hotel restaurant in the night... and after the first day at work fer the restaurant, my feet are bloody pain nw... those peps at the restaurant are rather friendly... and yup, its quite interesting actually... will share more tmr... nw im desperate to go to my bed....! zZzZzZ...

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Tuesday, November 21, 2006
7:37 PM

went to the dentist in school todae... glad to hear tt my teeth are in healthy condition... he just did some cleaning and its done... when im on my way fer the job interview, raji called mi to sae tt my dental card is missing and wad the dentist wrote on is another person's card... then the dentist expects mi to go back... and of course i nvr go back la... lost then lost lo... im leaving dunearn already anws...
the job interview was successful... a banquet waiter in some hotel in orchard... so nw i hav two jobs... hahaxX... after tt we went to orchard to do some shopping for prom nite... but in the end nobody bought anithing... was just hanging around in orchard... eat, play arcade, went cuppage play pool.... have a mixed fortune at pool todae... its still abit fucked up though...
also, i saw alot of guai lan kia in orchard... there is one lady who tie her hair until like the dna structure like tt... then dere is tis guy who listen 'i was born to make u happy' by britney so loud tt the whole train can hear... most of all, dere is this guy who printed 'Lormee' on his t-shirt... tt tym go timah play pool see one limpei, nw got lormee, i think nxt tym my shirt i print 'Mai hum'... hahaxX

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12:04 AM

YEAH...! THE 'O'S ARE FINALLY OVER...! NO MORE BOOKS, NO MORE MUGGING, NO MORE STUDY AND NO MORE WORRIES...! MUAHAHAXX...!
todae is a long awaited day... after 4 years in dunearn, 3 weeks and so of hardwork, seconday school life has finally came to an end... dunnid to go to school animore...! im rather restless during the chem bio paper todae... its the first time i slept after doing finish the paper in o levels la...
went to darkia's house to try out his new xbox 360... and its soccer after tt... the weather's abit funny today.... awhile the sun damn hot awhile rain... we (dar, bry, fah) actually went back to the school fer pre u talk in pouring rain... after the pre u talk, went back home in pouring rain again... shouldn't have even went back to school fer the pre u talk la... just a waste of time... not planning to go pre u anws....
just reach home from bt timah only... went dere to play pool wif andy, alvin, fahrun, jw, bryan, darkia... mi bryan and jw went to play snooker again... and its still rather frustrating... the balls hardly go into ani hole... we took 1 hr but still have not clear the table... still hav yet to acquire the skills fer snooker yet...
and i think im having mild flu now... after getting drenched in all those rain... sianxX... but still, im gonna enjoy the rest of the day... stress free...!

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Sunday, November 19, 2006
1:24 AM

manu won sheffield united 2-1... the commentators are boring... making the match abit dull... but manu should hav scored more... the referee is screwed up again... english refs really sucks man... dey should employ the world class singapore ref... hahaxX... and yup, rooney is sure hot on form... but ronaldo's performance sucks...
packed all the books, files and worksheets todae and dey are all out of my rm....! hahaxX... nw my room looks much neater and tidier nw... i nvr realise tt i actually hav so many assessment books... some are even untouched before... here's a picture of it:

and i hav yet to start on bio and chem yet... gonna pia all out tmr... hav been gaming most of the time todae... getting kinda addicted liao... supposed to go the singapore motorshow todae... but the plan was kinda screwed...
got a surprise phone call frm shirley auntie todae... she asked mi back to her bookshop to assist her... in other words, im employed... hahaxX... gonna start work on the 21st, which is immediately aft the 'o's... itz good anws, since im running low on cash nw... but the pay is kinda low... if i can find some betta paid job, im definately gonna go fer it... =D

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Friday, November 17, 2006
9:10 PM

one more paper to go... and ITZ THE END OF O LEVELS...! hahaxX... well... even though the holidaes only officially start after the paper next monday, im already in holiday mood ytd... jw, kk and gt came to my house ytd afternoon and were playing throughout... at night, i continued using the computer... and i only started to study for history this morning... hahaxX... kinda giving up hope on comb. humans liao... a maths was relatively easy for both the paper... and nw im on the way of getting A1 fer it... hahaxX... nvr ever thought tt i would actually be so confident of getting a good score fer amaths... nvr pass amaths before and suddenly im gonna get lyk a A1.. im gonna scare vijay until his pants drop..! despice summore... nw he's gonna get his dessert..! muahahaxX....! actually, itz all thanks to my tuition teacher... MR DRAGON..! hahaxX... really grateful to him...
In contrast, my hopes of getting A fer physics is dashed... learned alot of calculation but in the end itz more on theory... practised doing so much mcq questions but in the end most of the mcq qns are like ****.... geog paper one was still ok...
after school todae, went to play soccer... its long since i kick a ball... hahaxX... the long period of studying made alot of us lost the stamina and everyone was tired soon... and itz also long since i sweated so much... gonna chill for today and tmr... only gonna start revising on bio chem on sundae... and nw, itz back to gaming... NEED FOR SPEED, not oxygen, not gold, not carbon dioxide, but CARBON... hahaxX...
btw, just updated the music video section... The song by the all american reject and the rascal flatts is really nice... do listen to it ya...

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Sunday, November 12, 2006
3:20 AM

finally half the papers are gone... hahaxX... and itz 8 more daes to freedom... just a quick summary of the paers i hav done... fer geog, i screwed up the anemometer qns... so fer sure 11 marks are gone... fer emaths, 10 marks gone fer sure... just because i forgot to use cosine rule... aw... got a feeling i wun do well fer my 'o's... well... at least i tried my best... =D
was studying wif jw, bryan and clare at kap... zhiyun, joel, wesley, serene and gt also went dere later on... me, jw and bryan challenged each other to eat finish the whole packet of lemon flavoured warheads, which contain 9 lozenges, at one go... hahaxX... ttz damn bloody mad la... the feeling of puting 9 of those in the mouth is like puting tnt inside... nw i can feel the toothache in my mouth la... dere will be no more warheads fer mi in the near future...
something misfortunate happened... but glad it turned out ok in the end...
and i saw tis person, guess wad name he printed on his jersey...? the answer is: limpeh... dunnid me to elaborate, u noe how guailan is it already... lyk tt nxt tym the jersey i print: AhKu (which btw means I in malay, not joel =D) sia... hahaxX...!
finally, MANU WON AGAINST BLACKBURN... ITZA HARD FOUGHT 1-0 VICTORY...! MANU ALL THE WAY....!

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Tuesday, November 07, 2006
1:34 PM

fuck... made a huge blunder in the chem paper todae... instantaneously, 10 marks are gone... plus those which I dunnoe how to do, 14 marks are sure to be gone... damn... y did I choose qn 9 over 11... a qn which I dun hav much knowledge over a qn tt I studied hard overnight y... and itz just because I dunnoe the last two steps to obtain iron tt made me choose tt qn... fuck... otherwise would still hav got at least 8 marks... and being dumb, I put the answer as ionic instead of covalent... and ttz it... damn...!

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Saturday, November 04, 2006
9:42 PM

was studying at kap wif bryan, guanting, joel and wesley... supposed to go library @ esplanade to study... budden the organiser, which is clare, cannot make it... so deres a lst min change of plan... was dere from 11am - 6pm... from sky bright bright to sky dark dark... hahaxX.. its the longest hours i have ever studied... but still its rather slacking todae... have not totally recovered the studying mood... at least i managed to finish covering ss todae... and my family went to malaysia todae, so had dinner wif they all at bt timah food centre... coincidently, wesley's and bryan's family were also gonna hav their dinner dere... hahaxX... nw, im all alone at home... still deciding whether to go out and study tmr... feeling lzy to go out tmr la... sianxX... and thanks to jody & wenjia fer helping mi to photocopy the stuff... =D

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Friday, November 03, 2006
8:33 PM

kena fake tt the jurong east library opens at 8am... when i reach dere lyk 7.55, the entrance of the library is empty and when i look at the operation hours, it states tt the library only opens at 10am... then i pointed finger at clare, then she pointed at bryan and in the end the finger is pointed at me... so its lyk faking myself... hahaxX... yup, was studying at jurong east library wif clare, joel, bryan and guanting... was queueing outside at 9.30, but still we dun get a table... coze i or rather we were kena fake... yet again... deres no tables at the 4th level but yet someone ah, brought us dere... hahaxX... so was sitting on the floor to study, which is rather uncomfortable... itz not really productive fer mi... only did one theme fer ss and a few topics fer chemistry... on my way home on bus 172, passing tengah airbase, saw the F16s approaching the runway... it gave me the inspiration to study again... yupx... hav nt been doing much fer the past two daes, so gonna go all out tmr...

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Thursday, November 02, 2006
10:15 PM

brought my fone to service at causeway point todae... the servicing centre opens at 11am... but when i reach dere at arnd 10.45, ppl were already queuing outside the service centre... well... maybe tis shows tt nokia fones does hav alot of problems... in contrast, the samsung service centre which is nearby seems to be empty... hahaxX... during the period whr my fone is being serviced, i went to woodlands library to study wif bryan... was rather sleepy and having backbone ache todae, so the studies is nt really productive... woke watch soccer at 2.30am... tot the match will start at 3... in the end, it started at 3.30... when i realise the match is gonna start at 3, i slept on my sofa and woke up at the 10th minute of the game... somehow, after watching a few seconds, i fell asleep again... and when i woke up, the match ended... and manu lost... when i went back to the service centre to collect my fone, i was told tt dere was no T9 dictionary on my fone... i was lyk wtf... i would hav a terrible tym typing msg then... but aft i explore, i realised dey called it the word predictor... hahaxX.. heng ah... yup.. all the old problems are rectified... but here comes a new problem... the time of all msg received and sent is screwed up... aw...

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Wednesday, November 01, 2006
6:09 PM

had bio 'o's tis morning... the paper is ok la... not to say its easy, or to say its difficult... was expecting those fementation stuff like yought making, bread making to come out... but in the end it nvr... tried so hard to rmb ytd la... plants, heart, brain and more all nvr come out at all... instead, bacteria and fungi came out... nvr really touched on those topics... oh well... will be expecting at least a B3 fer tis paper...
was studying at kap with bryan and joel ytd... we studied frm lyk 11am-5.30pm... it's the first time i studied for so long non-stop.... was totally focused... and the result was:

a hole in the seat... hahaxX...! actually that was not made by us... its by another person sitting at the table next to us studying for a level... frm the time we reach there until the person left which is arnd 5, i think i only see her leave the seat once... and the picture's the result... hahaxX... she's scary...



And its also halloween ytd... well... deres nth much going on fer halloween... but bryan gave mi a picture which is quite eerie... hahaxX... is that considered a halloween present...?
damn bored nw... was practically slacking after i reach home frm school... no mood to study nw... sianxX... and the condition of my face is getting worse... oh shit....!

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