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Sunday, October 29, 2006
12:56 AM

was studying at kap wif bryan and clare todae... fer me, its rather productive... hahaxX...
and MANU TRASHED BOLTON 4-0...! hahaxX...! rooney rox...! and its back to the top of the table fer manu....
and just updated the music video list wif the top 4 songs on my itunes nw... enjoy... =D

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Friday, October 27, 2006
10:02 PM

yeah...! carrie chong finally read out my email dedication todae... she dun suck in my opinion anymore... hahaxX... on wednesday its bryan's dedication being read out, ytd is andy's one and today is finally mine la... everydae dunearn's name is sounded over the radio... hahaxX...
Click here to listen to my dedication

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Thursday, October 26, 2006
9:40 PM

should i consider todae as a suay dae...? things ain't just seem good fer mi todae... firstly is the o levels physics practical todae... itz a frustrating time doing it... i did the more difficult qn on lens first, which is rather suay... the lens is totally screwed... move ur head move the mirror move the len move the height of retort stand... blah blah blah... still, itz damn bloody difficult to obtain the image of the pin... the practical made us seem lyk a retard la... moving the head like a robot above the lens... look into the mirror until im damn bloody fucked up and headache... and still cnot get an accurate result...WTF man... the setter of tis qn is an as***le ..! as a result, i spent alot of time trying to get tt damn image and nvr do the planning.. which i lyk 5 marks... argh...! it affected my mood in doing the 2nd qn... itz also screwed... was suppose to find the speed in cm/s and i find it in m/s... since no liquid fluid is allowed, i cancelled everything and make the paper damn messy... and i still dunnoe whether my graph is right or not... is it a straight line or curve....? mines a straight line and nick lee saes its curve... haixX... ok... physics practical is definately gonna pull my overall down already.. damn it...! seems tt its harder fer mi to get A1 fer physics nw...
secondly, i lost in mahjong... itz fucked up... im just unable to win big no matter how many attempts i made... dun wanna speak bout it animore...
thirdly, diarrhoea is back again... had been in and out of the toilet 5 times already... my asshole is gonna rot liao... and summore i dunnoe wad i eat which leads to diarrhoea... only had fishball noodles in the morning and kfc in the afternoon... ttz all... none which will led to diarrhoea in my view...
so in conclusion, im definately suay todae... and the whole day is made up of fuck fuck fuck and more fuck... hahaxX... hopefully i wun need to go toilet again...

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Wednesday, October 25, 2006
5:33 PM

itz graduation dae todae... firstly, i wanna thank the 4e2 peps fer appreciating the video tt i had done on behalf of our class... hahaxX... was afraid tt it will be screwed up... well... it did screwed up a little... ttz tis typo error tt i made and somehow i nvr realise it after watching it ample of times... other than tt, it was quite successful... not to boost myself of smth, i would sae the video is the best among the classes... secondly, i wanna thank those peps who contributed the photos to make the video a success...
yup... was on stage todae to receive the best in progress and conduct award... well... the prize is only a miserable $5 voucher of the school's bookshop... aw... well... itz betta than nth... was kinda bored sitting in the prize holder's area... firx tym im sitting so near to the stage... only got that graduation mood aft all those speeches... hahaxX... it still feels kinda weird... somehow dun feel lyk im graduating as yet... and all the speakers make it sound lyk we're nvr gonna meet again la... at least technology are betta nwadaez... friendsters, msn, sms, blogs... derez still some ways of communication at least... why make it sound so sad... hahaxX... nvreless, todae is one of the happier daes... =D

Me and Kaan
Thanks Rachel
The 188 gang

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Monday, October 23, 2006
8:17 PM

went to school todae awhile onli... aft 3 rounds of cheat, we (kk, gt, jw) went out of class and school after mr vijay scolded us... and when we leave the class itz onli lyk 8.15... ttz nt even one period.. hahaxX... mr vijay said that itz nt compulsory fer us to come and tell us tt if we wanna make noise and play in school then go home... we heeded his advice... since itz nt compulsory, i wun hav came last fridae which is a total waste of time... anws, we went to mac aft tt... aft eating, dey were studying and im resting... nt feeling beri well since i had diarrhoea ytd... was having headache since i woke up tis morning... in the end, dey all came to my house... i tried to grab some sleep while dey were here... but ttz rather impossbile... jacky came to my house ltr... aft being pranked by us... hahaxX... we made him rush to school when derez nt much lessons going on...

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Sunday, October 22, 2006
10:25 PM

woke up early todae to hav breakfast at teck whye... saw wanting dere having breakfast also...
then went to vivocity in the afternoon... its BIG and damn crowded... itz kinda difficult to navigate the way dere... not all the shops are open though... i liked the idea of having a huge mini pool on the top level of the building... the entire roof of the building is basically a park... the cream puffs at b2 is damn nice... i like the taste of the bread alot... but nt the cream... was lyk having diarrhoea after eatin it... nt to sae dere something wrong wif the cream, but itz juz tt my stomach is vulnerable to creamy stuffs... hope tt i'll be alrite tmr... but, i'll still buy the puffs again on my nxt visit to vivo, just tt i will request fer less cream... bought a mask fer the gradution dinner at toy r us... shouldn't elaborate more on it... hahaxX... my mum shopped fer a dress fer a dinner tmr and my dad bought fans dere... one fer ourselves and 2 fer his friend... itz kinda of weird carrying fans and walking arnd the centre... hahaxX... shall go dere some whr in the near future again...! bought a mask fer the gradution dinner dere... shouldn't elaborate more on it... hahaxX...
was at tiong bahru market fer dinner... well, ate the fish porridge which is quite famous dere... and itz damn nice... the porridge is smooth and tasty... the long wait and queue fer it indeed paid off...
and most importantly, MANU WON LIVERPOOL....! YEAH...!

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2:03 AM

just came back frm m'sia... was unable to get myself to slp... since i dun feel lyk studyin, i was used the computer... made quite alot of changes to my com... updated a few programs, installed new programs, changed wallpaper and theme, changed the skin fer mozilla, changed the skin fer my blog and updated the music video section... unknowingly, 1 hr is gone already... somehow im nt in the right state todae... am i falling ill or itz just the same old sickness tt i have...? anws, itz deevapali (hopefully i spelt it correctly) todae... as always, itz in malaysia which will giv me the festive mood... the indians detonated the fireworks and lighted up the skies and my neighbour who is an indian was holding a party... so ya, at least i felt tt deevapali exist... also in malaysia, i found an optical shop tt sell contact lens which are damn cheap... i used to get the lens at S$15 fer one month's supply... nw im getting the same thing but a three month's supply at only RM40... ttz works out to be only around S$18... ttz a huge contrast... but no quality difference... and itz still made in ireland... gonna get my lens frm malaysia in the future already... hahaxX...

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Friday, October 20, 2006
7:58 PM

school's boring todae... its all about sleeping and slacking... hahaxX... was at pjc's open house tis afternoon... well... hav a rather good opinion fer the college... but my mindset to go to a aeronautics engineering course in poly remains priority... was watching a documentary on engineering of planes ytd on discovery... after watching it, i confirmed wif myself that aeronautics engineering is the place fer mi...
was quite shock to see my name on the awards list fer graduation dae... i got best in progress and conduct... best in progress sounded reasonable... but best in conduct sounded ridiculous... hahaxX... and guess wad, liyuan and benjamin chew also got the award... tt makes the award dun seem that prestigious after all... hahaxX... think dey should just name the award best in progress...

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Thursday, October 19, 2006
10:28 PM

itz 'o' level chem bio practical todae... was determined not to screw up again... well, it succeeded to a large extent... only thing i did wrong is to cut the stem inside the container instead of the beaker... im quite pleased wif wad i had done fer chem... but not fer bio... cnot really tell the difference btw the two leaves, answer the planning of expt. one wrongly and nvr label the maize correctly... was expecting food test to come out... in the end nvr and come out some stuuupid leaf qn... damn... the quarantine was damn boring... 3+ hours w/0 hp, mp3... sianxX... played card games wif the guys to kill time...
jw, kk, gt & joseph came to my house todae to chill... rented the lake house to watch... itz boring... i alradi predict the whole story line at the starting of the movie... kk watched until he fell asleep... hahaxX... guess that shows how boring it is...

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Tuesday, October 17, 2006
10:31 PM

im damn tired nw, both mentally and physically... gotta take tym off fer studying tonite... my cousin is having double happiness nxt week, but here i am dealing wif a double blow... i could hav easily fall... but thx to my mum, im standing still, trying to pass by all the hurdles im facing... trying to be forgiving, to stay happy and look on the bright side... being a middleman sux... im nt letting anithing affect my mood to study nw... but i hope all these chapters will come to an end soon... everything that has just happened is just lyk a fairy tale... i dunnoe wad im doin is right or wrong, neither do i noe wad the others are doing are right or wrong...

the road to 'o' levels is long and difficult... problems after problems arises... family problems, relationship problems, friendship problems... wad other problems can dere be man...! can somebody tell mi so i can be well-prepared for it... everything just came too sudden...

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Sunday, October 15, 2006
4:09 PM

derez so much things going on nowadaes... so much tt i dunnoe who to trust animore... the phrase 'trust no one but urself' become so true for me yet again... and somehow im involved in chaileng blog's saga... well... maybe i should practise isolationism again... so as not to create ani problems fer myself... 'ppl might not appreciate ur help fer dem'... so true indeed... IM NOT GONNA CARE ABOUT ANYTHING TT HAPPENS BEYOND MY SECTOR ANYMORE...!
anws, went to acjc and sajc open house ytd wif gt, ahku, bindy, rachel, lily and peishan... got some freebies frm both the jcs... hahaxX... after visiting both the jcs, i would prefer acjc... their facilities are newer and hav quite a few air-conditioned auditoriums... as u noe, air-con is so vital for studying nwdaes in singapore... hahaX... but sajc hav more choices of ccas and betta sport facilities... even if i could score 9 points fer my 'o's, i dun think both the jcs will be in my choice due to the tym required to travel... my preference to go to a poly stays intact... maybe going to pjc's open house nxt week can change my preference... saw a few of my primary school mates in both acjc and sajc and saw rani at sajc...
juz had a short conversation wif the mp of my area... he's making house to house visits to meet and greet residents i suppose... well, if he had not came to introduce himself, i would still dunnoe who is the mp fer my area and he would still remain as an unknown to me... he tot i was serving ns alradi... guess tt shows how mature i look... hehexX...! tis is the firx tym my family ever encounter a home visit by mp... coze most of the sundaes my family will not be at home... so ya, every tym dey visit we're nt at home...
[i noe i can fully trust u nw =D]

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Wednesday, October 11, 2006
6:17 PM

ok... the comments by anonymous screwed up my dae... [happie nw..?] i was damn pissed on reading those comments which rather dun make sense to me, especially the phrase 'u betrayed ur friends'... those words are sensitive to me... im being betrayed before and i noe the feeling sux... so y would i betray my friends...? i had thought hard and i cnot think of anything i have done to betray a friend or friends... make it clear to me if u wan to... i will apologise if the fault's on me or hate me if u wan to, otherwise u will hav no rights to hate me, blame me... and u are gonna be an asshole, a bastard and a coward fer screwing up my dae, dragging innocent ppl in, making me maligned my REAL friend, making my REAL friend curse u and wasting of my tym if u dun make things clear, damn it...!

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1:19 AM

nvr go for kaan's lesson todae... itz kinda boring and waste of tym going to his lessons... everything is useless except for his notes... since i nvr go to his lessons, i went to study wif wesley, jinfu and gt at plaza's mac... we were supposed to meet dere at 10.30...but i gotta help my mum do some housework first, so only reached dere at 11.45... gt was even later... he came at 12... he also had to help his dad do housework first... hahaxX... we studied at mac until lyk 1.20 then was kena 'chased' out as the period frm 12-2 is not allowed for studying... by the tym, joseph and kk joined us alreadi... so we went to wesley's house to study... in the end, more and more ppl joined us... serene, bindy, zhiyun, joel, linjing... hahaxX... frm a small study group become a mega one...
shopped fer aircon at IMM in the evening with my parents... thx to the servicing, my former aircon's motor overheated and kena... cnot use animore... the salesman of tis aircon shop tt we bought the new aircon frm taught us some tips on maintaining the aircon... learned more new things todae... helped my dad wif the installation once we reached home... we took a lengthy 2 hours to complete the installation as derez quite alot of troubleshooting to be done... but i must sae my dad is rather brilliant... hez completely new to all these aircon installing stuff and the installation guide given is not clear at all but he still managed to get the hang of it soon enough... um... impressed...

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Monday, October 09, 2006
11:49 PM

urgh... im damn bored nw... no games to play, no movies to watch, no mood to study, no... ... ... sianxX... damn bloody hot nw... no aircon tonite again... it was sent fer servicing ytd and itz back todae... but instead of the cold air that should be given out, hot air is given out... ass man...! gotta send it back to servicing again tmr... guess im already damn used to having it turned on everynite tt i cant sleep well once itz nt turned on... revamped my blog since i got nth to do...

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Saturday, October 07, 2006
1:47 AM

For all those plane enthusiasts/ interested in aeronautics ppl in our class:


the latest additions to the Singapore Airline fleet...
think tt tis is one big beauty... so just share it wif ur... =D

nvr know our class got so many pilot wannabes and aeronautics engineer wannabes until recently... haixX.. more competitions fer my dream jobs liao... ;( nvm, i will take tis as a motivation fer me to work even harder nw... hahaxX...!

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Friday, October 06, 2006
11:48 PM

the past two daes hav been damn boring... had to go to school evrydae... then everydae aft school was stoning... ytd's the same thing... aft the geog tuitorial me joseph and gt was stoning at lot 1 coze we cnot go xsquare as we're in school pants... then i rented to watch at nite... well, i found tt jennifer aniston is actually quite chio after the movie... hahaxX...! todae comes the interesting dae... met up wif gt ku kk joseph at the coffee shop to eat prata... then when we're walking to school, we met wayne, raji, bindy and errr cephas... so ya, we went to kaan's lesson together... the period frm 9-10am, me wayne joseph and raji went out of school to play block catching as kaan is away for invigilation.. we ended up playing iceman on the ground floor coze 4 person playing block catching is kinda lame la... so was back in class sweaty and smelly... budden luckily i got bring shirt ah... hahaxX... aft kaan's lesson, andy, joseph, ku, gt, jacky, fahrun went to joseph's house to eat cup noodle as we're all kinda broke liao... dere, i play nba live fer the firx tym... then kena trash by andy wif a score of 61-100+... nber giv chance to noob sia...! hahaxX.. we're suppose to catch at causeway at 1.30... but we only left joseph's house at around 1... so we ran to the mrt station and juz nice managed to catch the train except fer gt ku and joseph... we all managed to reach the box office at 1.30 after much rush and dey in the end decided to watch the 2.15 one... damn la... hahaxX... but is a nice movie la... itz funny, emotional, got jacky chan's stunts... wad else can u ask fer...? itz 5/5 stars in my opinion... a movie not to be missed...! aft the movies, joseph came to my hse... we had dinner together before we went to zhenghua to celebrate the midautumn festival... nvr knew the zhenghua park is so 'wulu' and high and packed... we played arnd, walked around the park wif lanterns + darryl's oldies cantonese singings... only went home at arnd 10.30... on my way home, i realised tt the hazy conditions is lyk getting worse liao... itz lyk genting's fog sia... all thanks to fahrun's fellow natives... hahaxX...! to summarise everything, the dae was fun-filled and im damn tired nw after all the runnings and walkings... hahaxX...!

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Tuesday, October 03, 2006
10:35 PM

yeah...! i finally completed the video on 4E2 fer the gradution dae liao... hahaxX... was lyk doing fer 1 hr + juz nw and my computer hang w/o me saving the one hour of work tt i hav done... tot the effort had gone to drain liao... budden luckily bill gates clever sia, invent something called autosave... i nvr learnt the lesson to save my project one la... the aim of the video is to make ppl feel emo... hahaxX.. was jk... dun hab the ability to do so... gonna watch the movie 'goals!' which im suppose to watch on saturdae [since i dun hab the mood to study todae]...

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Monday, October 02, 2006
11:48 PM

just came back frm JB... was dere fer golf in the afternoon... got back most of the prelims result todae... didnt actually perform up to my personal expectation... and my L1R5 right now is only 24... well, tt can actually bring me to firx 3 months in ite [or fahrun's SAITE] instead of jc... damn it... all the teachers are mad la... mark until so strict... or should i just sae i simply didnt work hard enough... sleepless nites to pia the studies and yet tis is the result... especially amaths... tried so hard in recent week... tuition all these sort of things... lyk totally focused on amaths and yet still get F9... haixX... damn...! was moodless... so nvr joined the others in their activities and went to lot 1 to meet my parents instead... my mum was so surprised tt i nvr join my friends todae and guessed tt i most lykly nvr do well fer my exams.. bingo...! budden tis tym she consoled mi instead of blaming me... guess she saw the effort tt i had put in for tis prelims...was rather thankful tt she gave mi the support which i desperately needed it... even though itz just a few words, it meant alot to mi... aft tt, my dad was going JB, so just followed him dere to golf... lack the fitness to even complete 9 holes... itz kinda expected... since i have not golfed or go to gym fer one month liao... the haze is terrible todae... a PSI rating of 71... maybe tt contributes to the headache tt i had ytd while jogging and the struggle fer fitness todae... still gotta go to school tmr... guess im going to sleep liao... unable to jio anybody fer breakfast tmr morning... boring sia...

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12:09 AM

Yeah...! Manu's back on top of the table again..! hahaxX... well, was practically watching tv the whole dae... only woke up at 11.30 todae after watching high school musical until 3am tt morning... planned to watch goals too... budden was too tired liao... nvr had anything until afternoon, which i had maggie mee... watched f1 after tt... kimi raikkonen retired yet again... haixX... mclaren is lousy... always had engine or hydraulics problems... luciky he is joining ferarri nxt season... budden itz an interesting race... f1 is always interesting when the circuit rains... cars skidding arnd... and unexpected outcomes... fer the nxt hour i created a theme myself fer my fone... the scaling of the images are troublesome... but when the final piece came out, itz worth it afterall.. my first attempt and itz successful...! hahaxX... went fer a jog in the late afternoon... was having headache after running arnd 1km... probably bcoze i only had instant noodle or the effects of watching too much tv... so finished the rest of the route walking... headache sux...!
getting back all the prelims paper tmr... aw...! most probably i will be back home disappointed wif the result... my english and geog are scrwed already... damn stressed nw...! =(

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