my first hope for an A i gone all thanks to the great mr kaan... was having high expectations for my geog la... then in the end only barely make it wif a B4... crap sia... study until so hard, waste so much pen ink writing the answer, and tis is the result i get... dunnoe whether to be disappointed wif myself or be fcuked up wif mr kaan... urgh...! damn it..!
school was damn boring todae... was practically chatting, listening mp3 and playing hp game all the while... would rather not come to school... since the teachers nid so much tym to mark, y mr wong dun alllocate thrus and fri as marking dae...? itz just a waste of time asking us to come school and do nth la....
went to play pool wif wayne and joseph... bryan, dar-kia and alvin joined us later... i finally found my touch to pool again...! although i still lost a few games, i lost happily...! had not had tt kind of form since 2 months ago... where i just lost and lost... after playing pool, we went to play lan at bt timah plaza... was having problem wif the mouse at the start of the game... so was being killed again and again and i got 0 kills... budden, later in the game, the mouse somehow become ok liao... hahaxX...
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Thursday, September 28, 2006
10:35 PM
1. Full name: ngzhenming
2. Name backwards: gnimnehzgn
3. Meaning of name: prove..! [zhenming in chinese]
4. Nick name: ming-kia
5. Screen name: jam!e
6. D.O.B: 31/01/90
7. Place of birth: singapore
8. Nationality: singaporean [half malaysian..?]
9. Current location: CCK
10. Star sign: aquarius
11. Religion: buddhist
12. Height: 1.77m
13. Weight: 59 kg
14. Shoe size: 11
15. Hair colour: Pure Black
16. Eye colour: brown
17. Who do you look like: my dad
18. Innie or outtie: outtie i suppose
19. Lefty or righty: righty
20. Gay, Striaght, Bi or others: confidential
21. Best Friends: kee, ku, jo, wj
22. Best Friends you trust most: kee
23. Best Pals: isn't same as best friends...?
24. Best friends of opposite sex: jo, wj
25. Best Buddies: gt, joseph, jacky, and more...
26. Boyfriend or Girlfriend: N/A
27. Crush: N/A
28. Parents: dad & mum
29. Worst enemy: JEREMY..! fucking action...
30. Favourite online guy: no comments
31. Favourite online girl: no comments
32. Craziest Friend: faharni... no doubt...
33. Advice Friend: loads...
34. Loudest Friend: farhani
35. Person you cry with: jamie [which is myself]
36. Any sisters: yes... 1 younger one
37. Any brothers: yes... 1 younger one
38. Any Pets: my dog...!
39. Any disease: choi...!
40. Pager: nvr own one in my life before
41. Personal Phone Line: my handphone...?
42. Phone: nokia 6280
43. Lava Lamp: nah...
44. Pool or Hot tub: nah...
45. A car: is toy car included...?
46. Your Personality: quiet. [ppl oftenly take tt as tao-kia]
47. Driving: in malaysia...?
48. Room: just gt some funitures frm ikea... but still messy...
49. What's missing: CASH...! hahaxX...
50.School: dunearn
51. Bed: single
52. Relationship with parents: fine
53. Believe in Yourself: depends
54. Believe in love at first sight: guess so...
55. Good listener: sort of...
56. Get along well with parents: okok la...
57. Save e-mail convos: i dun think i commnicate wif ppl thru e-mail
58. Pray: yes
59. Believe in reincarnation: neutral
60. Make fun of people: yup... but oftenly run out of ideas
61. Like to talk on the phone: um... i would sae yes
62. Want to get married: depends...
63. Like to drive: yes...! driving is fun...!
64. Motion sickness: nah... i love to move arnd...
65. Eat stem of broccoli: yarks..!
66.Eat chicken with fork: duh...
67. Dream in colours: no... i dream in music...
68. Type with your fingers on home role: ???
69. Sleep with stuff toys: no, since pri 6
70. Next to you: air particles...
71. On the walls of your room: airbus a380 cockpit poster
72. On your mousepad: solero shots
73. Dream car: too many liao... [ranging frm lamborghini to honda]
74. Dream date: someone who lyks to hang out at beaches...?
75. Dream honeymoon spot: on some Antilles islands
76. Dream husband or wife: nvr even tot of tt
77. Bedtime: my preferance is 1-2am
78. Under your bed: floor
79. Single most important qns: ARE YOU A VIRGIN...? muahahaxX...!
80. Bad time of the day: ???
81. Your worst fear: going to ite
82. The weather: humid and hot
83. Time: 2321 hrs
84. Date: 28092006
85. Best trick did on someone: dunnoe lei...
86. Theme song: lips of an angel by hinder
87. Hardest thing on growing up: pressure...!
88. Funniest experience: ever heard a dragon's hiccup...? itz hilarious...!
89. Scariest experience: bad dreams...
90. Silliest thing you had ever said: dunnoe lei...
91. Most desperate and funniest things you have done to get the opposite sex: no comments
92. Scariest thing while you are with your friends: while on the way to old changi hospital
93. Worst feeling: tired...!
94. Best feeling in the whole: to be in love...?
& 0 Person i ask to do this are :
im not gonna ask anybody to it coze itz a waste of tym [and im kind-hearted of coze]... =D
do until i tired sia...
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9:59 PM
was late fer school todae, all thx to the 188... come so early tis morning... gt, vincent, jeraine, clare and joel were late too... dere quite alot of ppl who were late todae... then after those ppl cleared the parade square, those who are late were asked to sing national anthem... tis is the firx tym i late then still nid to sing national anthem la... wadz most ridiculous is tt eric low commented tt 'dun u think u can come to school late delibrately just to skip the national anthem'... ttz so dumb la... who would delibrately come to school late just to skip national anthem...?! and he also said itz not fair to the others who sung... wadz the diff sia... does one nation anthem affect the loyalty to singapore...?! dun ever think his words is processed by his brains... we kinda refused to sing the firx and second time when the anthem is played.. we forcefully sang the last one... tis is just so lame la...
only get back chinese, geog paper 1, physics paper 1, english paper 2 todae... nver perform up to my standard... especially fer my english paper 2 and physics paper one... got a border-line pass fer english and only 27 fer my phy paper one... crap...
watched miami vice wif joel, kk and gt...itz a damn boring show... 1/5 stars in my opinion... and jody said itz damn nice... fake mi sia... hahaxxX... dun understand wadz actually goin on fer the firx 1h30min of the show... boo...!
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Wednesday, September 27, 2006
10:50 PM
yeah...! prelims is finally over... felt so relieved... no more waking up at 4am in the morning to study again [at least fer the nxt 2 weeks]... hahaxX... emaths ytd was ezy... fer todae, geog is still ok... but i dun think i can make it fer bio&chem mcqs... well, since we're the last class to leave the hall todae, eric low asked the whole class to arrange the chairs and tables in the hall... how suay... no treats summore... hehexX...
after everything ends, we [andy, jacky, gt, joseph, kk] hang out at the kopitiam, then jacky's hse... jacky's brother looks quite alike jacky... andy was lyk saying jacky's mum photocopied the faces... hahaxX... heng i dun look lyk my siblings.. =D
we went to play soccer aft tt... dere is some miscommunication btw andy and weijie... so we ended up meeting at the wrong place... but we eventually still met up... dun really feel lyk running much todae.. so was playing last man fer most of the tym...
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Sunday, September 24, 2006
2:24 AM
DAMN IT...! MANU DREW WIF READING...!
wad the fuck is richardson doing sia...! all the good oppotunities giv him he dump it away... and the damn ref... tt shouldn't be a penalty la... ... ... ... ... ARGH...!
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Friday, September 22, 2006
10:39 PM
im 3/4 dead nw... woke up this morning at arnd 5 to study fer biology... those chapters that i focused on mostly nvr come out... so nvr realli did very well fer the paper todae... all the cells, yogurt... it sux...
went to wesley's house to play mahjong after the boring geog tutorial courtesy of mr kaan... all those who went (bindy, jacky, gt, andy, joseph and kk) was drenched when we reached his house... the rain was realli heavy todae... dere, we ordered mac delivery... it took the guy quite long to come... my stomach was already groaning... my 5th fast-food meal of the week.... hahaxX... paired wif gt in mahjong... a long tym nvr play + a rookie = not a beri good result... we suffered minor losses... budden was still quite happy as it was much less than what we expected...
and it was cycling nite wif jw... we cycled frm cck --> guilin --> bb nature park --> timah hill visitor centre --> cck... itz strenuous...! the route is even more tiring than the route to science centre the last tym round... but tis tym is even more fun...! although derez alot of upslopes which are demanding, the steep downslopes justified it... the sensation of cycling downslope is undescribable by words... especially frm the visitor centre to b. timah road... itz even more shiok than cycling downslope from the peak of farmmart centre...! hahaxX...! but thx to jw, the brakes of my bike spoiled... fortunately i got the skills to repair it... otherwise i nid to push the bike home already...
guess im gonna be fast sleep once i hit my bed... still got amaths tuition tmr morning... aw...
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Friday, September 15, 2006
8:31 PM
was suppose to meet 8.15am at the coffee shop to hav breakfast... i woke up late... only reach dere at 8.30am wif kk... joseph's the firx to reach at 8.15 on the dot... by the tym me and kk came he already finished his prata... but joel n' gt was even later... wanting, bindy and sandra also had breakfast dere... saw tis women at the coffee shop who is dressed scandally in tube and black opaque outfit... her jeans is nt buttoned..! hahaxX...! realised it when she walked pass our table... told kk and we were lyk laughing bout it... then it was physics practical... made a joke of myself thx to the bloody marble... it dropped out of the beaker when i was pouring out the water... firstly, it bounced to joel's area... when i walked dere the marble rolled back to my place... and when i walk back, it rolled in front... was damn pissed off at tt tym... ms aw asked me to forget bout it and she passed mi one more marble as replacement... other than tt, itz quite ok... played pool at timah in the wet and cold afternoon... we [joel, joseph, gt, jacky] was semi-drenched when we reach dere... lost 4 games before i finally won... the 4 games add to my existing record of 5 games without a win and makes it 9 games without a win... what a record tt is... not having the best of luck in pool nwadaez... haixxX...
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Thursday, September 14, 2006
8:46 PM
had geog prelims tis morning... i woke up lyk 4am just to revise it again... was quite surprised i can wake up actually... hahaxX... well, dunnoe whether to sae the paper is ok or difficult... i managed to do every questions... hope tt this is a good sign tt i will do well.... =D
went to wesley's house fer mahjong aft lunch... joseph and i tag-teamed... we were losing when i had to leave half-way fer tuition... awww... but nber mind... my good luck wishes fer joseph be4 i go fer tuition came true...! he managed to recoup the losses and we won money in the end.... hahaxX...
my tuition teacher is late fer ONE HOUR todae... itz just ridicuous... actually decided to giv him face... but not long after he settles down he made us [mi & jw] laughed [hard]... hez having hiccups... and the tone produced frm it is damn funny... we tried hard nt to laugh... but when jw saw my 'trying not to laugh' face, he cnot endure anymore and laughed out loud... of coze, when he did tt im ,too,unable to endure anymore... itz lyk so bad la... it took us quite a while to cool dn... hahaxX... then the whole mood of studying is gone... to save his blushes, he explained to us tt he uses tt 'technique' to cool dn when ppl provokes him... so crappy... hahaxX...had been seeing weird [but interesting] ppl nwdaez... saw tis guy sleeping in mac on mondae, saw this drunk ang-moh women in bikini ytd and todae the hiccups... hahaxX... yups, itz adding colours to my life to make it interesting again...
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Monday, September 11, 2006
10:57 PM
wah... the blogger website finally wanna load liao... soccernet also loading liao... hahaxX... unable to load these websites just nw, arnd 8... but messenger is still dn... so boring... was studying wif beranrd at lot 1 mac... derez tis weird guy sitting at the table nxt to us who looks lyk dr ng... after finishing his meal, he slept... hahaxX...! ppl were lyk studying and he was sleeping... itz a ridiculous place to slp... but yet he still can slp until so comfortable... the study plan was practically spoiled by cephas... poping out of no whr wif the deyna gang who was so noisy and childish... spoiled my mood to study...
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Sunday, September 10, 2006
4:07 AM
yup... itz 04:02 in the morning... supposed to be sleeping soundly nw... but im still hanging arnd... just cnot get myself to sleep... played 3 rounds of aimless pool on the net... listened to songs... getting abit bored already... read my horoscope fer the dae... it says tt: 'The hunger, impatience and irritation you've been feeling lately is about to come to an end. You're entering a new phase of reward and contentedness.' well, i dun really believe in tis type of horoscope thingy, but i seriously hope wads being said will come true... i dun wan any rewards or contentedness, i just want all the irritations to stop... i had enough of it already...! the first prelims paper starts tmr... im totally nt prepared... so far, im only prepared to screw up my prelims... haixX... wadeva la... dun plan to go to a JC anyways... and itz 4:20 liao... ok la... try to get myself to sleep liao la... wonder when tis night, or rather morning, will be over...
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Saturday, September 09, 2006
10:51 PM
was quite impressed wif starhub's service todae... derez smth wrong wif my digital cable console todae... somehow it cnot be turned on... called starhub's customer care and their guy came down lyk 1 hour ltr... ttz damn fast la... he simply replaced a new console and evrything is settled... and itz FOC... the new console is smaller but damn laggy... well, itz foc after all... hahaxX... tot i will hav no soccer to watch tonite liao, budden thx to the starhub guys, i did not miss soccer tonite...!
did nth much todae... woke up quite late todae and only studied abit of chemistry... after solving the cable tv stuff, i slept fer the rest of the afternoon... went to bp plaza fer dinner and saw wesley at popular... yes, itz wesley again... guess we're really fated nwadaez... hahaxX... gotta go back to watch soccer already... =D
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Friday, September 08, 2006
9:12 PM
havin mild headache nw... probably the effects of studying too much... hahaxX... times files... unknowingly to me, itz fridae already... lost count of the daes... probably bcoze these daez are filled wif more misery than joy... up to date, i had only done 4/14 maths papers and studied chemistry only... smth tt i should be really concerned wif... prelims are starting nxt week... but i hav yet to do most of my studies during tis one week break... kena cheated to study at wesley's house... yup, wesley, again... me and him kinda gay liao... hahaxX... tot he gt jio some other ppl, but in the end itz only me and him... sounded kinda boring, but any place away frm home is good fer me, at least i wun think too much and could concentrate on studies... realised he is sharing the same fate as me, we're on the same boat... maybe ttz y we could link wif each other so well nwadaez... hahaxX....was playing songs from the cd albums i have and found these two songs which totally describes wad i have been through fer the past one week... song no.1 is 'ghost of u n me' by BBMak frm the album and song no.2 is 'i cry' by Westlife frm the album ... every word and every phrase almost fits the bill... wondering did the composers compose those when their hearts are broken to make the songs so realistic... hahaxX...! yup, im glad im walking out of the blues... at least im studying nw... betta than on sundae and mondae whr i practically did nth...
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Thursday, September 07, 2006
10:57 PM
watched TRL tis morning... fer 150 buckx, tis guy stuffed his head into a box filled with 'fresh' socks from the audience and had to last fer the length of the music video of 'call me when ur sober'... wonder how tt guy can last fer so long... maybe he can breathe thru his ass...? hahaxX...! tis suddenly made mi thought of wayne's red bball shoes... rmb tt tym joseph raji and wayne himself was competing who can withstand the smell of his shoes the longest... maybe tis is wad i describe as pure plain madness... will nvr ever try tis [unless itz fer a million buckx =D]... yucks...! went to study at woodlands library wif wesley and andy in the afternoon... guanting last minute pung sae us by nt coming... saw bernard and benjamin dere... dey had been studying dere since 8am...! um... i think im still sleeping lyk a log at 8... hahaxX... ttz the difference btw potential A1 scorers and potential C6 scorer i guess... was wondering did dey even have lunch... we took quite some time to find a spot to settle down... the library was rather packed with ppl studying todae, ttz y... and, finally, fer the firx tym tis week, i study... wad an achievement it was fer me... hahaxX...! wesley made a fool of himself half-way through studying... he was exploring andy new fone and played 'everytimes we touch' accidentally... and somehow he could not stop the track... you can just imagine it... the library is so quiet and suddenly the song is being played, somemore nt a while, but smthing lyk 30 secs... itz so embarrassing...! luckily we sat in a secluded area... otherwise i would hav dig a hole and bury my head inside already... hahaxX...im slowly walking out of the blues...
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Wednesday, September 06, 2006
11:58 PM
i screwed up my practical mock exam todae... haixX... was so fcuked up aft it ends... firstly, no matter how i tried, i can nvr get exactly 2cm3. itz always at 2.2cm3... freaky sia... and fer the testing of gases, i can't get a single positive result even aft a few tries... and wad the hell is titration... left the whole qn blank... well, ttz fer chem... fer bio, i forgot how to do the ethanol test even though mr ng just went through in class ytd...! i screwed the biuret test as well... maybe ttz y mr ng was lyk picking on me throughout the experiment... budden i dunnoe why when i doing experiment half way he took away my water bottle... punishment fer wad i had done wrongly in the experiment...? hahaxX..! and aft the experiment, i realise my results totally dun tally wif others... ppl get smth lyk 1.smth fer the concentration but i got 2.6. Ppl found zinc nitrate but i found alminium nitrate... die liao... went to west mall to hav breakfast and then went to pool at bt. timah wif joel. kena trashed 5-0... really dun believe im tt unlucky todae... got smth lyk 20 'free' balls budden onli hit 5 in... and evrytym when im on the verge on winning, i will lose eventually... wad the fcuk...!specially went to al-ameen fer roti-prata... budden itz sold out...! ttz how unlucky i am todae... had mee goreng eventually... the servings is big man... didnt manage to finish the whole plate of it... had my very first cup of milo dinosaur aft tt... itz damn sweet, but itz nice... itz worth trying... headed fer wesley's house wif a full stomach... upon reaching dere, dey already started watchin 'exorcist'... nt a very nice horror movie in my opinion... on my way home, i nearly missed my stop while closing my eyes and indulging in music... tis is the firx tym i indulge in music until i totally lost touch of my surrounding... well, guess it just came at the right tym...
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006
11:55 PM
i just realised that my right eye is significantly smaller than my left one...! suddenly got the crave to look at the photos in my computer... and this photo of mine caught my attention... itz lyk o.0 and when i take a closer look at all my photos, indeed my right eye is smaller... i guess it has been lyk tt fer mths liao, or even years, but somehow just found out only... hahaxX...! anybody hav tips to make both eyes even in size...? hahaxX...
got mock physics practical exam in school todae... was rather distracted... probably nvr slp well lst nite becoze of the thunder... broke a thermometer when doin the practical... by doing tt, i also break my 'clean-sheet' fer not breaking anything in the lab... hahaxX... but the practical todae is rather ezy la... other than the question where it ask how to measure the number of turns in the coil, itz no problem fer me... =D
im tired nw, but i just can't sleep. i knew i had to study, but when i take out the book, i simply stare at it blankly. how i wish things can go back to wad it used to be...
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Monday, September 04, 2006
11:11 PM
aww... steve irwin died... hav been watchin' his show since i was a kid... still, itz abit unbelievable la... hez physically fit and dun hav any health problem... and suddenly ceased... was quite shocked when i heard over the news over the radio... just so tragic... but at least he died while doin the things he like... guess he will hav no regrets... R.I.P.nth much todae... finally watched the fast and furious: toyko drift... the ending sux... but the cars are cool... still prefers the first fast and furious though... the show made underground racing seem so cool... nice cars + hot women... luckily this sort of things are not available in singapore, i would hav joined otherwise =D. but still, i might learn drifting legally in the future. must obtain my driving license firx, of coze. hahaxX. starting to luv speed...! guess i would be traffic police's best friend once i obtained my license... hahaxX...!
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1:09 AM
I'm regretting my decision to be honest. I thought it would make me feel better and that I could get over it coolly. Well, the first few days are still ok. I felt much better after letting my heart out. But gradually I'm feeling the effects of it. I got myself engaged every minute and second so as not to think too much about it, but the day will still come to point where there's nothing to do and can't stop myself from thinking about it. Maybe I thought that I had not committed myself into it, that's why I decided to make things clear to prevent myself from committing to it even further which might eventually lead to the worst. And now, the worst that I predicted came. I unknowingly commit myself into it already. I have to take the blame for the mess I had created. Told myself not get into this kind of thing again at least before 'o' levels but I still did. Damn it! That kind of feeling sucks. It's just like a break up. And I felt it again and again. I'm sick and tired of it already. Why must all the problems come at this kind of time?! Just solved my family problems and now comes my personal problem. I'm seriously damn tired already. God must be playing a fool of me. I need a nice long break now. Feel like getting myself drunk now and don't care about anything. Life sucks [for now]!
If you read this, please don't get the wrong idea. I'm not writing these to make you feel bad, for your pity or sympathy. Give me sometime to get over it. =) Good luck for the upcoming prelims!
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Saturday, September 02, 2006
9:13 PM
future pilots in da house...
finding entertainment during the boring wait
jet wif huge boobs...? hahaxX...!went to the RSAF open house wif wesley todae... the weather was great... bright and sunny skies... to get to the open house which is at the paya lebar airbase, we had to take a shuttle bus frm eunos interchange... and the wait sux... we waited merely 1 hour just to take the shuttle bus and the trip dere takes a boring 20 minutes... which made us miss the air display...! abit disappointed... derez nth much dere... only a few aircrafts are on display... games and activites in the hangars... so itz actually quite boring la... budden i acquired an important information frm the open house... tt is i can still be a pilot even though im short-sighted...! i initially tot even if i go fer lasik operation and acquire a perfect eye-sight i still could not be a pilot... but going to the open house cleared my doubts... summore i nid not go fer operation before going into NS... all i nid to do is choose piloting as an option during NS and if i were to be chosen, dey would arrange me fer operations all these... this is just GREAT...! hahaxX... itz a boost to achieve my dream of being a pilot... saw melvin and my primary school friend jiexi at the open house... melvin came alone... saw him when we were about to go back... at tt tym, he just came... otherwise would have asked him to follow us... dunnoe whether to call this suay or nt, all the way in paya lebar i can also run into jiexi... ran into her recently at Lot 1, at the bus-stop and at the interchange... um... ok la... i would consider this damn suay...! hahaxX....! *btw, u seriosuly dun look to me lyk ur frm NCC air...!* itz a long Q fer the shuttle bus back to eunos interchange... was so happie when we finally board the bus and leave the place... aft which, we went to bugis arcade... saw this guy playing time crisis 4... he actually rmb the whole map [lyk joseph] and was able to complete the game and i was also finally able to see the ending movie fer the game... hahaxX... despite tt, he only finished 12th position... um... ...making a desperate attempt to make order out of chaos...
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8:37 PM
this is my 50th post... did filing fer my school work ytd morning... nearly scared myself to death when i took out all my worksheets... hahaxxX... have not did filing fer all subjects since maybe somewhere around march... and wif a teacher lyk mr kaan, the stack of wksts tt i hav is imaginable... only half the stack was cleared aft one hour of hardwork... by then, my hands are tired liao... so left the other half fer some other day... went to jb fer golf ltr tt afternoon... finally got my favourite 7 iron back to my 'squad'... hahaxX... itz broken lst month and only got it repaired recently... and wif tt, i played a relatively good game *fianlly aft a month*... hahaxX...!
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